Living in a bubble? Good or bad?

Yay, it’s me again!

I bet you didn’t see that coming! :D

Just thought to blog some more, cause I felt like it and I perhaps have something to say (what a surprise *sarcasm*). But yeah, let’s see…what’s going on in my life…I’m looking for a new job at the moment. My boss just cut my hours, cause they don’t need me to do all the work that I used to do and now I really, really, really have to find a new job unless I want to eat cardboard for the next two and a half years. With that being said, Finland, I freaking love you, but you are REALLY foreigner unfriendly. For a person, who wants to stay here permanently, you give me a lot of shit.

I can’t get any benefits, which I understand to some extent, cause you can’t be sure that I will later on decide to stay here and “work” those money out, BUT at least I should get an equal chance to get a job. I mean I do speak Finnish, I guess…though in all honesty, I know a lot of people, who don’t know jack shit and still have a job, so I’m wondering where do those jobbie trees grow. But yeah, my recent one month has been consisted of countless e-mails, CV’s, motivational letters and recommendation references. Damn.

Would be cool to find an internship abroad, though. A lot of my friends are perhaps going on exchange, which is really cool, but I just want to get an internship. :D As a former exchange student, I don’t feel like going to another country for the second time, making good friends and then having to leave them to go back and spend another 2 years without seeing them. Cause going away from Finland kinda sucked and I was away for only one year, so yeah. A lot of you may think “it’s not such a big deal, especially if you go somewhere in Europe, you can always visit”, but the thing is that I really get attached to people and I’m gonna have a really shitty time seeing someone for only a week once a year. Like for example, I miss the hell out of Linda (who was an exchange year in Arcada last year) and if I would see her now, I would be even sadder when I have to say goodbye again. No more exchange programs for me, please. I had my time and it was fun, but now I want to do different things.

What I REALLY want to do is go to the Youtube space in London as an intern, but unfortunately they don’t take interns. LIKE WHY????? I would be so good at it. I would be going to work with the hugest and goofiest smile ever, taking calls in english like a complete boss, reserving the space and organizing events, I could totally do that. And I would meet cool youtubers and we would hang out and and I would get really nervous and start laughing for no reason, my hands would shake and I would maybe awkwardly try to hug Charly Cox, but I’m up for that. It would be perfect. Gosh, why does this have to be so complicated? :D

By the way, am I the only one, who lives in their own world? I keep thinking that I’m going to do an internship in a cool place like Sillicon Valley or London or New York and it’s absolutely happening, even though there is nothing that even remotely suggests it. From time to time I realize that I live in Helsinki, but in one of those weird neighborhoods and black guys keep hitting on me, cause I have a big ass, it’s getting progressively darker, I’m culturally oppressed, I haven’t properly spoken to my best friend in months, cause he’s in the army, I need to find a new job asap and I’m somewhat thinking about people, which I will probably never meet, and then I get depressed for a while, before I go back into my bubble and start thinking about Entrepreneurship and Start-ups and YouTube and stuff like that.

Speaking of my best friend, lately I’ve been missing Joel A LOT, but I can’t really text him all the time like “hey I miss you”, cause it’s weird and we don’t do that. And I’m 100% sure that he’s not thinking about me almost at all, cause his head is full of other shit he has to deal with and I’m the least of his problems. And I’m also a very emotional person, but I try not to tell people really touchy-feely things, cause I don’t like people thinking of me as a sentimental bitch. But it’s true, sometimes I really need someone to give me a big and long fluffy hug.

Oh and as a change of subject, here you go some photos:

Processed with VSCOcam with hb1 presetThis is Aksu doing something with his meat stick (lol…meat stick…). Me, him and Erik are doing some great stuff together. We are developing a campaign for Fazer and can I just say, it’s going to be out of this world. It’s nice working with people, who are as excited about something as you are. It means that your work is going to be fun and you’re going to actually do something worthwhile. I like them boys! :)

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This one is not as good as I would have liked it to be, but it’s probably the only picture of me and Pierre like ever. :D And he is a cool guy. The french exchange students are awesome. I am a tutor for two of them and the other two are also pretty dope, so I guess that means that I like french people? Yes.

And on a completely different note, look what I did:

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetYep…I think it looks fucking awesome (I’m so modest). It’s from my last trip to Tallin, I just took a picture of the water and I thought that I would do something cool with it later on and yesterday I was bored, so I did it in maybe 5 min. It’s nothing special, but it’s captivating somehow, idk…

Also lately I’ve been going back to my childhood pictures and memories and I found this picture! Time has definitely taken its toll on it, but I have so many good memories with that purple jacket, which actually is from the 80’s and I was probably like the 4-th kid to have it…

Processed with VSCOcam with c2 presetThose are not my parents, they are still to this day very good friends of my mom’s, but they were really fun when they were younger. :D Anyway, I miss the 90’s and I wish I could be a kid again and not have to deal with responsibilities and bills and group works and assignments and whatnot. Literally my only problem as a kid was the next time I was going to go to sleep…oh, the times…

And now for a low quality phone picture (I gotta have at least one of them in my post :D) :

Processed with VSCOcam with m6 presetThis is Sami’s first selfie (the guy to the left). We were bowling and I suck miserably at that game, but at least I can take a proper selfie. :D Haha! I can’t say that I’m a selfie addict, but I’m not one of those people, who is like “Oh my god, you self-centered bitch, why are you taking selfies?”. I kinda like to do it every now and then, especially if I’m with good company. So yeah, now you can see my face and 2 others (Sami and Miriam). Yay.

But hey, this post is already getting kinda long and I’m running out of things to say, so I’m gonna wrap it up. For a good ending, I would like to share this song, which I’ve been listening to recently:

Now I hope ya’ll will have a nice day! :)

//Stef – Vi ses nästa gång!

 

 

Overly-social Stefani.

I have an interesting life.

Something new every day. New faces, new parties, new opportunities, new courses and new mistakes.

I haven’t had a computer at home for over a month now, which is why I haven’t been posting anything on my blog, but now you know… I’ve turned facebook into my personal chronology of almost every single day, which kind of annoys many people, but it’s the best I can do with my phone, so…

I’ve been up to a lot recently, as well. So I’m a tutor for all the exchange students and all the freshmen and this means non-stop partying 5 times a week. I was a toast master for a thing called sitz this past thurday and had a huge kick out of it, as everyone seemed to love it. I like people. I’m gonna put some pictures here just so that it’s not really plain, but I’m sure most of you have already seen those…

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Alright, this was from one of our trips to Tallin. I love taking photos, but I can’t always carry my camera everywhere. :( But here everyone is sober, haha. :D

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And yeah…I’ve been very busy with that and with my lectures. I’m glad the school year has tarted again, it felt empty with all of that free time I had before. :)

It’s been abolutely great, but now I feel like I need to concentrate on myself. Studies and other problems, which I need to strighten out…

After 3 weeks one could say I am a bit worn out. I’ve been listening to this jam lately:

Which brings me to the music part. So I know I usually do listen to cool songs, but what is aactually “good”? Everyone has a good taste in music in their opinion. So anyway, I’ve been listening to a A SHIT LOAD of John Farnham and I’m just like….HE IS AWESOME and I never really realized that before despite having heard like 5 of his songs before. If you don’t know who he is, listen to that song and just…listen.

I know he is in an awkward pose in this pic, but disregard it, please. :D I wish we could hear that on the radio nowadays. But then again, maybe not, cause I would spazz out and start singing and I already tend to do that a lot, so…

But yeah, I’ve been listening to a lot of music recently and I’m kind of sad, cause no one I know is willing to jam with me to the 70’s, 80’s and 90’s. I’m a very outgoing person, so I guess I hang out with a lot of people, so I don’t understand how I can’t find a lot of people with the same music taste as mine…

But yeah, that’s enough about me for now. I know it’s a shit post, but I do actually have school work to do and I can’t slack off for too long. :/ I miss blogging. Maybe tomorrow again?

//Stef

Oh the summer days.

Hey, bloggy-blog!

I’m feeling happy.

I’ve been doing all sorts of stuff lately. To begin with, I’ve gone out with my friends much more than I used to when I was in uni. By friends, I mean Joel, Johanna, Jamppa, Noora and the rest of the guys, who don’t really go to Arcada. Joel and Rasse went to the army last week, so we’ve been trying to be with them as much as possible before they left. I’m going to miss them both! It’s not like I hang out with them every day, but I do  spend a lot of time with Joel especially (naturally as he’s my best friend) and now I won’t be able to just “go out” whenever I feel like it. And I’ve also heard terrible things about the army, so I’m worried about them. Of course, I know they will be fine and they’re strong lads, so they can handle everything, but I don’t want them to hate it. :/ It’s gonna be a long year… And Henkka has a bit less than half a year left in the Navy, so then I would have someone to hang out with again (as a boy from our posse).

And on a side note, yesterday I got the news that Joel was accepted into Helsinki law school, which is REALLY difficult to get into, so I’m SO PROUD of him! I know he busted his ass all spring, got up at 7 every morning and went to the library every day and read like a mad man for the exam, so I’m thrilled to see that he got his dream study place! And that also means that we can go to stadi parties together next year. :D

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With that being said, the sad thing is that most of us are studying in different places. Jazz is in Turku, Johanna and Noora are going to Tampere, Rasse is going to Rovaniemi, Jamppa to Holland and it’s just gonna be me, Nelli and Joel, who are staying in the Helsinki region. Spending time together is yet again, going to be compromised at some level.

So anyway, we all went to play football in the middle of freaking nowhere (well okay, Laaksolahti, which is almost the same thing) and it was good fun, except that I seriously need to work out and build up my strength, cause after half of the game I felt like puking my lungs out and I was as red as red can be. Much to my relief, we ended the game early, cause of Jamppa’s foot, which got jumped on and he couldn’t play anymore.

Other than that, I’ve pretty much been occupied with watching football, working and going out with people like Olli, Quan, Stina, Paola, Joel, Noora, Jazz, Nelli, Jessica and so on… I’ve been trying to eat more clean lately, too (half successfully, but still better than nothing). And my favorite breakfast so far is this:

The only downside is that there is watermelon juice flying everywhere, when I try to eat it like that with the spoon, so I have to cut it beforehand. >.< And I’ve also been making a lot of vegetables with chicken, cause it’s freaking delicious, especially if I add a wok sauce to it, it’s bueno. And easy to make. And now I should figure out other things to cook, too, if I don’t want to get sick of that in a few days. :D Haha.

And I was 3 times this week on a power walk out in the neighborhood, which I must admit gets boring after you’ve seen everything 10 times. So I’ve been thinking of going somewhere further away from home, just to spice things up.

Aaaand yesterday, I went out with my lovely, lovely friend Jessica and was later joined by our schoolmate Daniela. We went out into the heart of Helsinki and we had a nice walk before we decided to lay down in the park and soak up the sun. Good thing I had brought my camera with me (and my phone as well, haha), so I took at least 2 really good pictures. :P

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And I also got spotify premium, so we could literally listen to whatever we wanted to, so it was me just playing my “old as hell” playlist full of idylic songs and chill-vibes. There were so many people around us, too, everyone seemed to be really happy and outgoing. It was a really cool day.

And with that I think I will leave you until next time. Chill out, folks, I’m already super sad that summer is half-way through and I want to live like this forever…except that I would maybe like to change my job and go to Arcada, as well.

But yeah, peace out for now, lovelies!

//Stef

FIFA World Cup, Driving around and Shopping.

Hello!

So let’s blog again.

First of all, I’ve been okay and I’ve been watching a lot of football. Why? Well, first of all, my work hours are very flexible, almost all of my friends are scattered around Finland, I have a lot of beer and good food and I just genuinely think this is fun to watch. I’m not the biggest expert, though I do think I know more of the rules than your average girl (and less than your average boy), but once I get my head in the game, those 90 minutes go by fast as hell. Plus, I have nothing against Spain, but I wanted Netherlands to win the last World Cup in South Africa, so now I feel some sort of a small satisfaction that they’re off the table. And I’m still rooting for Netherlands, those guys are great.

Regardless  of my team preferences, I’ve distinguished a few very good players from different teams such as Guillermo Ochoa, Luis Suárez, Claudio Bravo and then the ones I liked even from before, Robin van Persie, Wayne Rooney, Leo Messi and Fernando Torres. I never understood the concept of good goal keeping before I saw Ochoa, I mean…I used to give him much less credit than what he deserves. On Monday I’m going to be glued to the TV, cause I’m really excited about the game Netherlands – Chile…I like BOTH teams a lot, I’ll be keeping my fingers crossed for Netherlands, but damn, it’s gonna be tough. And I really don’t know what will happen… And then Germany is also a kick-ass machine, so you never know how things will turn out.

Other than football, my life hasn’t been that interesting lately. I guess I have been driving around Finland with Salla and her little baby. We went to Jyväskylä, Tammisaari and we stopped by Fiskars to check it out. I’m in love with that place. I really am. It’s so…quiet and clean, green and calm…I don’t know how to describe it, but I can’t wait to get back there. Here’s a picture of it.

And there was this really great chocolate place, which had this absolutely adorable design!!!!

It’s just so cozy and vintage and I loved it. :)

And about my driving…I was kinda nervous at first, cause I hadn’t been driving in a long time, but the more I did it, the calmer I got. Even though there were wet roads and rain storms and I had to drive really fast. :D

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Then I also hung out with Stina and we went for a really cool custom made ice cream and that thing really made my day, cause I fucking love ice cream! And Stina, of course, my favorite Oulu person. :) It was great to catch up, I’m probably going to see her on Monday again.

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With that said, the other thing I’ve dedicated my time to is shopping and I now am a proud owner of a few more clothes than before and a kick ass M.A.C lipstick, for which I seem to be the most excited about. Red lipsticks do wonders and I really mean it. It’s the holy grail of all lipsticks, so now I am going to look kickass whenever I feel like it. All hail M.A.C.

And yeah…now I’m talking about playing football with my friends. So far Joel, Jamppa, Rasse, Noora and me are up for it, but Jazz is most likely gonna join as well, since she’s such a hardcore football fan. And I just asked Mikko as well, so it might turn out that we’ll have enough people! YESSS! I feel like getting that blood moving and having some fun…even though I’m not the best in football, if it’s with friends, who cares. :D They’re gonna make fun of me anyway. :D

And on that note, I’m gonna leave you peeps and keep watching the Germany – Ghana game. 

//Stef – Moro.

Summer is officially here! :)

Hey!

So it’s summer!

I just wrote like 2000 words about the importance of drinking water and realized what a load of bullshit I had just written, so I had to delete it all. What the fuck, Stefani?!

Here’s 2 pictures of me from Monday (when I spent the day with Jessica)

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I had a really nice day out with her! We went to Nosturi and took great pictures there, we had ice cream and talked about boys. I like Jessica a lot, a lot, a lot. And here’s my personal favorite picture of hers that I’ve taken!

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Later we went to the Cor-house with Maku and Björn and they went to the sauna, while I was busy playing awesome music on the laptop…but then we actually did some badass grilling, so here’s pictures from then, as well!

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So, it’s been a really great end of the university year! I also went to see all the exchange students for one last time before they all left for their home countries…it was sad. A part of the reason why I didn’t want to be an international tutor next year is because I know that I will get attached to all the amazing people and then they’ll leave just like that and I hate it… But, I am, in fact, going to be a tutor, so I best get used to the thought…

On another great note, now I’ve had a lot of free time and what I’ve been doing with my life is basically sleep and eat. The weather hasn’t been GREAT, but today is the first day in a week that I can actually see the sun, so that’s nice. I went to the store the other day and bought a lot of food, so now I can make salads for a week and not run out of anything. I’m still not used to the whole adult thing, though… Even after a year. Few days ago it was a year since I came to live in Finland and in September it will be a year of living alone. Time flies FAST. But it’s been a really good year. Apart from the fact that it’s really difficult for a foreigner to find a decent job here, every other aspect of my life has been great!!

Although I haven’t been keeping in touch with my best friends lately, I haven’t spoken with Joel in a month, but I know everyone is fine, cause I see their messages all the time. I’ve just had so much on my plate that I’ve been a bit anti-social you could say…But with friends like mine, I know that I haven’t been forgotten! :)

And yeah! Summer is officially here, let’s see how it will go!

//Stef – I’ll try to be more consistent with the posts, okay?! :D

 

One amazing month…

So here’s the deal!

I’ve always liked May.

It’s just such a great month. This time last year I was so busy with my prom and matriculation exams, as well as travel details and driving license courses…it was hectic. I still loved it, though. This year it’s been so chilled and nice…despite all the finals, I’ve been feeling so relaxed and open. Nothing can bring me down.

I had my birthday, as well…on 10-th of May. And let me tell you, it was the simplest birthday you can imagine. I went to work in the morning, I bought myself some cake, came back home and watched movies all day long. I didn’t see anyone or do anything special. When people found out, they were quite upset and all like “oh nooo, you spent your birthday alone, that’s horrible, I’m so sorry!”, but I don’t really see anything bad in being alone. I’m SO social that I thought I could use some “me” time to be alone with my thoughts and do whatever I want, which in my case was to watch movies. I thought it was a great birthday! And I haven’t actually celebrated my birthday in more than 5 years, if you don’t count my mom’s gathering of her friends at our place, which is great – but not a birthday celebration.

Aaaaaaanyway, as a treat to myself, I purchased a DSLR camera. You have no idea for how long I’ve wanted this. Probably since 8-th grade. I finally had the money to buy a great one and I’m just so happy! The best birthday present I could have given myself, honestly.

So, naturally, I’ve been exploiting my camera as much as I possibly can, so here you go, one huge load of pictures that I’ve taken in the last few days… :D

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Okay, I got a little carried away…but I love the colors so much! And I can’t wait to go and take more photos. Last time I went out with Linda and Olli and here’s 2 pictures from Olli’s camera, which I really liked…

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Overall, I’ve had a great time this month!

I’m going to be really sad that school is ending in less than a week, though… I’m honestly going to miss all the social interaction with all those great people and most of them are going back to their hometowns for the summer and some (like Linda) are even leaving the country and I don’t know when I’ll get to see them again…kind of bitter. I’m really happy about the weather, but with it comes so much sadness…I don’t know.

But yeah, this was just a picture blog post, hope you like all the pics. Which one is your favorite? Mine is this one.

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//Stef – sommarloooov.

Well damn!

Yeah, so…

I slacked. Like a lot. Like a month and a few days kind of a lot. I have no excuse other than the fact that I’m a lazy mofo.

So what have I been up to during this last month? Besides being awesome, I mean. :D Well…I was HOME!!! Like BULGARIA HOME. Almost can’t believe that I actually spent some time there, it feels like a dream. But I was there only for 10 days, so that might explain it. The good thing was that it was warm and nice there and nothing in the city has changed at all.

One of the good things that happened there is that I got to see my mom! She was supposed to be in Dubai and one friday morning (4am) she rang on the doorbell and I was so happy! I hadn’t seen her in almost a year and I’ve missed her so much…she cooked for me and gave me a massage and we even managed to get into a fight! I love this woman so much.

I also went out with a few friends, got to see the clubs again, met some old schoolmates and stuff…it was really nice. And I also almost missed my flight back home. By almost I mean, they opened the gate for me 1 minute before the plane was supposed to take off. I never want to go through this kind of stress ever again (note to self: CHECK YOUR GODDAMN FLIGHTS ON TIME). And yeah…here are some pictures of my time in the sunny Varna.

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By the way, in Bulgaria we actually boil the eggs and then we paint them and then we have “wars” with them and the person, who’s egg doesn’t break is the winner and he is a big bad boss and it’s really fun, dunno why you guys don’t do it in Finland…

But yeah, that’s about it for the pictures I took…I was busy having fun instead of taking a lot of pictures, which is a shame, cause now I won’t remember this trip as well as I could have. But oh, well…

Anyway, when I came back to Finland, more parties started to immediately rain on me. Like for example Linda’s 22-nd birthday party.

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It was really fun and there was carrot cake and cookies! :D We got creative and stuff, Mikko almost set me on fire and now I’m lucky to be here (haha). :D

Then we had the Syttsitz, which was a fun thing to attend. I drang Jagerbombs and beer and shots and oh my god. :D Linda sent me a few videos of me singing my heart out and what I don’t understand is why must I always sing, when I know I can’t do it…? I even sang the lyrics wrong, so now when I re-watch it, I’m cringing. Those videos shall never see the light of day. Ever. But I did take a few pics of other people, so here ya go:

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The next day was pretty fun, also! We (Arcada people) went to this park place and had a “picnic”, but actually everyone got drunk and we went to the coronation of Havist Amanda.

Side note: Uhjdbvfhjr, having a blog in English means that I have to explain what the fuck every single thing is, cause I have readers from all over the world and most of you are probably like “Havist whaaaat?”. It’s a statue that we put a graduation hat on every year on vappu (mayday).

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And yeah, then I went to freaking Tapiola to have fun with my bfffffffffffffff’s. We barbecued A LOT of meat, cause the men had made sure to not leave anyone hungry. Or thirsty. Gaaaad. But yeah, one thing I really like about my friends is that they have the same awesome taste in music as me, so we can blast out awesome tunes and sing along to them as a group of 10 and that’s the dream. Awesome people, indeed. And I needed to hear some Finnish speech after a gazillion years within the Swedish/Bulgarian environment. The good thing is that EVERYONE could come. Joel, Henkka, Rasse, Jamppa, me, Nelli, Nora, Noora, Jazz, Kaisa and Johanna! We haven’t been together all of us in probably 2 years, cause we couldn’t match our schedules to match. But now we did and it was amazing. Best thing ever. And of course, we got drunk as hell. :D Joel’s place is the only place, where I can get really wasted, cause I know I can stay overnight there and I’m surrounded by people I really love.

And a funny thing about our company, even though Joel is my best friend, it’s still funny how everyone knows everything about the other 9 people. No secrets or anything, so it’s kind of weird, when we’re eating on the big table all 10 of us and we’re discussing really private topics that one would think you can only tell 1 person. :D Haha.

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Aaaaand the next day I went out again (Jesus, I should maybe stop???) to this one park in Kaisaniemi and I met a few of my friends there, but the weirdest thing happened…I met some random people and I was like “Eyyyy, you have the same overall color as I do!!!” and they were like “Eyyyy, that’s so true, let’s partyyyy!” and I thought “Why not?”, so I went partying with random people to a really random place (we had to climb some walls to get there, that was fun all on its own. But yeah, at least two people, who I knew from before were there, so that’s nice…though they didn’t belong to my student union, but fuck it. :D It was fun.

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The next day I went out with this little bugger here:

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Basically, I haven’t seen Joonatan in AGES and I missed my little brother, so I thought I might as well catch up with him. So he’s gonna go to lukio next year and he was a bit nervous about that, so I had to breathe some confidence into him. :D And we also watched the movie “Transcendent” with Johnny Depp, which wasn’t half bad. Jonttu thought it was weird, but I kinda liked it. I would have liked it better if I had gone to the bathroom before it started and didn’t feel the need to pee pretty much throughout the entire movie…but yeah.

Overall speaking, I’m pretty much okay. I’m waiting for summer, even though I’ve got no clue what the hell I’m going to do, when it actually comes…oh, damn. But for now, I’m reading online marketing newspapers (yes, I know…but it’s fun. really.) and catching up on “Supernatural” and “Cosmos”, while drinking lots and lots of tea. Yeah…dunno what else to add here.

I guess I’ll talk to you next time.

//Stef – cyaaa!