Life in a month.

Hey, everyone!

I can see it’s been a while since my last post.

March was an all in all okay month, but I’ve been too busy sleeping and drinking to write another blog post. I can say a few good things, which happened and those are: I will officially be a tutor next year, which brings me this tiny little feeling of accomplishment, cause I know I’ll be good at it. Also, we got our overalls last Friday and I couldn’t be happier about it, since they were 2 months late. I’ve been sowing patches on and this is my new favorite piece of clothing.

Other than that, I’ve been trying to meet more new people and actually have a good time with them, since I can’t really say that I’m perfectly satisfied with some people. Yeah. Anyway, I’ve been partying a lot. With my math teacher. What? Yep.

This was 2 weeks ago, I think. It was a really cool sitz and Karis was nice enough to buy a lot people a lot of drinks. I have no idea why, but hey, at least it was fun. I may have gotten more drunk than I would have wanted to, cause I spilled like 2 liters of water over people, for which I’m sorry. But yeah, life happens. Student life and all that. These big parties are good for having fun, but not really for doing wise things.

The week after that we had another party, which was supposed to be a small and rather private one. It was. We were like 7-8 people in this big space, but…I actually really, really liked it. The time went by so fast, I went in at 20.30 and next thing I know, it’s already 5am.

It was all people I know, but not people I know very well if you can put it that way. So this is Olli, with whom I’ve been talking a lot lately and he’s really cool and stuff. I actually met him like a month and a half ago, I had no idea who he was before that, but I’m glad I met him, cause he gives really nice hugs and yeah. He’s also interested in photography, which is a win-win situation, cause I need someone to teach me how to not kill myself with a camera (once I get mine, which will be soon. :D)

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Then we have Maku and Björn. I’ve known them since like…December, I think. By knowing, I mean, I’ve seen them in bars and around in school for brief moments and I’ve heard my friend Stina talk about them every once in a while. They’re really friendly. So Maku has a thing for lifting girls apparently, I got to find that out last Friday, when I was 2 meters above the ground praying for my life. I know that he is strong, but I don’t trust him, cause I’m really heavy and I keep thinking that I will end up with a twisted hip or some shit like that. But it went well last time.

As for Björn, I talked to him a lot this time. This guy is freaking amazing and I’m so glad that he decided to talk to me (like for real).  I needed to listen to someone really sincere and I got just that. He reminded me again why males are way better friends than females. I wish I could talk to him again sometime. :) Plus, he owns the dance floor, not gonna lie.

Basically last Friday was a really good party, cause I still believe in the saying that quality is better than quantity. The company was very good. Thanks to everyone, who were there.

Then in the morning I realized what an asshole one of the guys from school actually is, but I don’t really care, I’ll just let it go past me. I’m trying to not let negative emotions influence me, which is important for a person like me.

Anyway, on Sunday I met Linda, Jessica and Kirsten. First off, Linda is my hero, I really, really, really like her and I’m going to miss her like crazy when she’s gone. I fucking love every single minute I spend with her, cause she inspires me so much…to just be more creative and careless. I’m definitely going to visit her in England. And Jessica…we’ve been spending a lot of time together around the Arcada Entrepreneurship Society and organizing the events and she is also so nice. I love her laugh and I’m glad that she’s just a first year student, because I’ll get to see her every day for the next few years and that is something to look forward to. Amazing woman. And then Kirsten, basically sex on legs. Super friendly, hot as hell, I only want to take pictures of her until the end of time. Agh! But yeah, we were doing a video together for fun. It’s for the song “Happy”…

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It was so much fun. I’ve decided that I would like to surround myself more with people, who make me feel good and those girls really make me smile. Great day! :)

And today I overslept for my lecture (again), so I’ve been at home all day watching movies and listening to music. I also made these babies.

Tasty as hell. And just as unhealthy. But I’m a self-indulger, so yeah… By the way, I watched again the debate between Bill Nye and Ken Ham…so much brain hurt. I had forgotten how much I wanted to punch Ken in the face. But I guess everyone is entitled to their opinion and there are a lot of people like him, who just refuse to accept facts and evidence. Ah…

On the bright side, Joel started me on Cosmos, so I kind of watched every episode today. Oops. A lazy day well spent. I’m very interested in science and in everything about life, so this show was very interesting to follow. I definitely recommend it. :) I’m always looking for something to challenge my thinking and beliefs.

But yes, that’s my month for you. I don’t really know what else to add…Oh yeah, a few of my favorite bulgarian photographer’s works. Just because they are beautiful and I want them in this blog.

Gotta love double exposure, it’s so magical… :)

But yeah, I’ll go now and I wish you all a very nice Monday evening.

//Stef – until next time


Second post of the day, but this is worth it.

I’d like to share a few pictures with you.

Almost every major religion breeds ascetics; wandering monks who have renounced all earthly possessions, dedicating their lives to the pursuit of spiritual liberation.Their reality is dictated only by the mind, not material objects. Even death is not a fearsome concept, but a passing from the world of illusion.

I find these images to be so profoundly simple and yet so detailed. They scream everything the subjects represent and for me, that is what photography is about. The first image is by far my favorite and perhaps the one, which screams the loudest.

This isn’t to say that the rest aren’t strong and powerful in their message.

The wonderful portraits were done by three New York based photographers and cinematographers Cale Glendening, Joey L. and Ryan McCarney, or should I say that the project was done by them, because it involves a really beautiful documentary, as well.

They spent a lot of time getting to know their subjects before taking their portraits, which makes the photography oh so exquisite.

I think this is amazing. The cultural difference is so big that it almost seems like a fairytale to me. At first seeing the documentary (which you will find at the bottom), I was a bit skeptical about those guys’ abilities, considering how young they are, but this is so wonderful, it speaks for itself…

This is so beautiful…to consider that those people live with close to nothing, they don’t fear death and they even embrace it. I am so in awe, I love it.

Also I’m very impressed by the photographer Joey, who captured the culture so well an clearly understood what these people are about. A huge hats off to you! :)

And let’s not forget the documentary, which is absolutely mind blowing. Magical colors, great story and insight. Bravo. Rarely do I give compliments on such a high level. As far as I understood, most of this was shot on a Canon 7D, which is the kind of camera I want to buy for myself, and certainly not the best thing on the market, but still very good nonetheless.

Well, I’ll leave you to watch the documentary and you definitely should do it if you have free time, you’ll love it. :)

//Stef – have a good one.

How to be lazy as hell and still manage to somehow get things done.

Hello, munchkins!

If you know me, you’d know that I am a really, really lazy person.

What I like to think is that I’m not actually lazy, but it’s just that I postpone the things that don’t interest me. That includes a lot of homework, cleaning, some social interaction and even sometimes cooking. I can write a whole new post on the topic of how to write proper bullshit for your university papers, because I always do them 20 minutes before they’re due and I always get full points, so I suppose I have some knowledge to share with the rest of the normal people, who want to party more than they want to study.

Okay, so to the topic. How to get things done, while being really, really lazy. I’ll tell you what I do. First, when I see that I have an assignment due in 2 weeks, I think to myself “Well, I don’t have time for it now, I have to drink tequila off of a classmate’s belly button right in this moment and I need to prioritize”. Once I’ve drawn the conclusion that I will not do my work in stages as I am supposed to, I forget about it until the day before it’s due.

Sometimes I get a tingling sensation in my stomach, which reminds me to check my calendar, but who the hell listens to those completely unscientific feelings anyway? I don’t check anything and I just go to school like the queen of laziness (which I am.) and usually my friends give a lot more crap about the assignments than I do, so I learn about the due date during lunch. See? I didn’t even have to check it myself. So far I’ve done nothing.

Then what happens is, I decide that I want to be productive for a change and make a promise to myself that I will do the assignment as soon as I get home. I have yet to see this happen. What I do is, I open my computer, check 9gag, watch a movie, chat with people on facebook, write a blog post, talk to someone on skype maybe, read the news, spend an enormous amount of time watching youtube videos, discover new sites…the list could go on forever.

Seeing as it is already pretty late, I mean, I’ve been browsing the internet for hours and there is not a single cat picture I haven’t seen, I get super inspired to do magnificent things with my life. The assignment is literally the last thing on my mind. I just start getting ideas about completely different things, I research good cameras, ISO differences, 50mm lenses, photography inspiration, video editing programs and stuff like that…one time I even read a book about online marketing, while I was avoiding my business administration assignment.

So yeah, at this point, it’s about 3am, I am more awake than ever and I think about the assignment again “I know I should have done it by now…”, but then I remember the famous saying that “the morning is wiser than the night”, so I decide to just screw it altogether and go to sleep or browse the internet some more.

The next day…only a few hours before the actual dead line, I get up as normal, I grunt and squint at my old self for being a lazy motherfucker and not even checking what the damn assignment is about. I go about my routine as usual, I have my lectures and then I go to some computer classroom to do the work 1 hour before it’s due. I stare at the computer screen for a few minutes, resenting the fact that now I actually have to do this shit, I complain to a friend a few times that my life really sucks and that my reality is way better than this. Then I see what the assignment is about and my jaw drops to the floor, because it’s something like 3 pages of essay text on a topic that I have no clue about.

Okay. I try not to panic, but it’s really difficult, seeing as I’ve already wasted so much time and I need to be as fast as a lightning to make it in time. But then I remember that I am a hardcore bitch and I run a blog and I can easily squeeze out at least a thousand words even for a topic as boring as “The Monopolistic Competition in the 1950′s”. I pull myself together and start typing. When I’m in the zone, I’m in the zone. Exactly how I do it is a topic for another post, but the bottom line is that I’m finished 10 minutes before I have to hand the assignment in. It looks beautiful, it’s my baby, a product of my amazing capability to squeeze bullshit out of my brain in a short amount of time (it should be an Olympic sport!).

I hand that thing in with a huge sense of accomplishment. Stefani has yet done it again. The situation is under control. I can finally go home and chill without having to worry about turning anything in until next week, when I’m going to be so screwed, cause it’s exam week and I haven’t studied almost at all. But that’s a problem for future Stefani to worry about. Carpe Diem, I’m a real student!

This structure applies not only to assignments, but to anything in life, really. Wait until the very last moment and you will most likely have a masterpiece. Or if you, like me, don’t care about anything else than your own little world and you can’t be bothered to do the boring work, then it doesn’t matter what grade you get as long as it’s not a fail. Though I’m pretty blessed to have good grades, so thanks teachers for being so understanding and kick-ass! :)

And that was another thousand word post for you to read in your time. I hope it didn’t hold you back from doing actual work. :D

//Stef – toodaloo

Life so far…

Okay, hey peeps!


I’ve been supermegagiga busy with stuff, which is good, but also very consuming. I’m behind on quite a lot of school work, yet I’m always at school, it’s very weird. All I do is answer e-mails, write proposals, eat food and repeat. BUT. I am happy to say that it’s been very rewarding so far. I don’t know how many of you know what the Rotary start-up challenge is, but I’ve been consumed with it for a while. So I won (together with one other really sweet guy) the opportunity to go to semi-finals, which was REALLY dandy. I was so happy! (still am) The whole thing seems pretty crazy to me, because all we had to do is pitch our business ideas in front of a jury of entrepreneurs and they chose the two best ones to go to finals. And I was one of the best. This is the unbelievable part.

Someone actually thought that my idea has potential, which made me more than happy. I was over the moon for the first 5 minutes, when I found out I’m going to semi-finals. Somehow, knowing that people believe that this could be true is very motivating and sweet. Because Joel has always said that “this is unrealistic” and “impossible” and I talk to him quite a lot and I see where he’s coming from, BUT I also think that I have a completely different mindset in that sense, I think that nothing is impossible if you try hard enough and this small win proved it (at least to me, which is the most important thing). I’m going to pursue this idea of mine and if it doesn’t work, it’s completely okay, but I have to at least try or I will regret it forever. Here’s the most inspirational talk I’ve heard about going crazy and making things happen:

I don’t know, I just really like this. I think it’s the perfect source of inspiration for years and years forward. Also, you don’t just accidentally get good at something, you work for it. Which is what I want to do. I want to be good, I want to be the best. Because it’s what I want to do. So I’m taking extra courses in university. Video editing, graphic design, next year I’m taking 3D studio production, cross-platform production and so on. Completely unrelated to my degree in Business, but you know what, I’m taking the best out of everything, I’m taking advantage of everything presented to me. Double degree? Why not? Why the hell not? I’m this close to buying a kick ass camera and going on a shooting spree. By this close, I mean that it’s going to happen within the next few months and I cannot be more excited about that. So yes.

Somehow I’ve always known that I want to do Film making, but I’ve never had the guts to share it with anyone, so I went for business…but I do want to finish this degree, because that interests me, as well and I can definitely get a good use for it. I quite like marketing, it’s the second best thing for me after film making. I’m glad that in this university I have the opportunity to study both (in a way). I will make my life successful. :)

Processed with VSCOcam with f2 presetThe weather is still bad and I almost can’t take it. I feel so bad whenever I’m outside, my feet are always wet, I really hate it. It’s warm during the day, so all the snow melts, but it gets cold in the evening again, so it snows once more and it’s a never ending circle of slush, which is the worst possible weather, in my opinion. I feel depressed by it, I can’t wait for spring. Sometimes I hear a bird or two singing and I get so hopeful and it feels so nice, I can almost smell the spring coming. But then another wave of slush hits me and I come back to reality. Oh, please, please weather, PLEASE get better soon! PLEASE!!!!!

Processed with VSCOcam with c1 presetWith that being said, it IS February, so the Wanhat dances happened once again. This picture is from my wanhat (2012). I was so happy on that day. I want everything to happen all over again!!! And I almost can’t believe how fast time flies, I mean, was this REALLY 2 years ago? I remember all the dances and our own dance and everything! It was so cool. When I come to think that I wasn’t sure if I even wanted to dance, I want to give my old self a slap…one of the best experiences of my life, hands down! And I had all of my best friends there, it was such a happy moment. Speaking of best friends, here is a perfect opportunity to state that those same people are still my friends and I love them just as much as I did back then…and I’m happy that for the first time I found friendships, which don’t depend on time and distance. I am a lucky girl to have them. :) Happy Wanhat dances to everyone, who were involved in them this year, I hope you had a blast!

So what’s next for me?

2014-02-17 05.09.59 1I don’t really know, but I am eagerly waiting for the summer and I hope it’s going to be incredible! I’m still contemplating on whether or not I should work during those warm months (I have sent out applications, but lawd knows if anything will come up). I want to go out with as many people, as possible! Soak as much sun as I can, go on walks, have picnics, take more photos, make more videos, eat berries, make strangers happy somehow. I also want to see people, which I haven’t seen in AGES, but I don’t know if that will happen, since I’m not really that close to them, but we’ll see. Also, Linda (a good friend of mine, I’m sure you know her) is leaving Finland in June, since she was here only for 1 year on an exchange and I kinda really like her and I’m going to miss her the whole summer, cause that would be the best time to do stuff together in Helsinki. I’m really sad about that. :( But I’ll go visit her in the UK (also a good opportunity to visit my oldest friend, who is being a bad ass architect in Portsmouth at the moment). And I’ve always wanted to visit England, there’s something fascinating about it that I can’t explain. But yeah…that’s happening at some point.

Well, that’s all I have to say for now, I guess.

//Stef – take care, my lovely caterpillars!




The weather sucks.

Hey, everybody!

So yeah…it’s been a while, but I’m back for another post.

I’ve been extremely, extremely busy with doing stuff, which have absolutely nothing to do with my degree, so now I have too much school work on my head and next week seems pretty busy, as well. I want to tell you all about what’s been going on, cause it’s actually really interesting and fun, but I feel so down and lazy and…I just don’t have the strength to write another 1000 word post about my life, when nobody really cares. It’s been interesting, that’s all I have to say about the last 2 weeks, which passed way too quickly for my taste.

The weather has been really shitty, I’m sick and tired of the wet feet every day, spring can’t come soon enough. Sometimes I just see the slush outside and I don’t even want to leave the house, but then I remember that it says I’m an adult on my ID, so I have responsibilities, which makes me uncomfortable.


It’s been like that and everything is just so squishy and watery…WORST weather, hands down. Especially, when it’s drizzling rain and you’re lost outside and need to walk for another 4 km. I freaking hate winter. I can’t ski or snowboard, so I can’t even enjoy the snow. Also, last time I checked, I sucked at ice skating, as well, so basically I just want my spring.

Our overalls are taking ages to arrive. We ordered them in September and they’re STILL not here. Everyone is really pissed off (me included), because the other student unions’ overalls are already here and it’s not fair. Also, some of my HanSe(that’s my student union) mates have been tripping over my wish to purchase Commedia(another student union) overalls, as well. I don’t understand what the big deal is and why I can’t have both if I’m a member of both unions. Also, I really enjoyed the tradition and morals lecture by the international students about what the overall is about (especially since it’s a Finnish thing), at the same time nobody gives a fuck about keeping those traditions, but suddenly I’m the bad guy. Whatever.

Also, hey! The truth is ugly. I’ve been very busy with work lately, I hate it. First of all, I don’t particularly enjoy what I do, second of all, it doesn’t give me nearly as much time for social life as I would like to, since I’m working on both days of the weekend. But I have to pay my rent, so yeah… Which brings me to the subject of Finns and money. You guys are SO spoiled. You’ve no idea how you look in my eyes. “Daddy only pays my rent and the state gives me just 400 euros (however much it is)”. BOO-HOO, cry me a river. I don’t want to offend anyone, but pull yourselves together! My parents haven’t sent me a single cent, I come from a country where the state couldn’t care less about my education and I don’t get anything from Finland, as I’m a foreigner. I literally have to work if I want to eat, not to mention all of my bills. When have you heard me complain? I do think it’s unfair to me, I’m 18 years old – starting everything early, in a foreign country, working and studying and there are the 23-24-20-somethings complaining about how they only get this much money for doing absolutely nothing. Excuse me, while I don’t sympathize. If you’re going to complain, please do it between each other, where the level of “spoilness” is equal.

So yeah, I can’t see my friends, cause I’m working and that really sucks. But the worst part is that I know they’re going to have just as much fun without me. It’s not even weird to say that I want to be missed. Whoever says they don’t, is a liar. I’m looking at pictures at the moment and everyone seems so happy and smiley and I’m just sitting here trying to fall asleep. Some people have forgotten that I’m their friend, others have grown apart from me and that’s because the bonding happens on Friday nights, when I’m tucked in bed thinking about the future, which is very unclear.

I’ve sent a few summer jobs applications and I have some sort of minimal hope that something might happen, but then again, I’m a foreigner in Finland and that is generally frowned upon. I just really don’t know. I’m a little frustrated with myself and sometimes with the people around me, but I know I just have to deal with it…

Well anyway, hopefully my mood will be better after the weather is back to being good.

//Stef – wish me good luck for my Swedish test tomorrow! :)

According to my non-scheduled schedule, it’s time for a new blog post.

Evening, everyone!

Now that I have a tasty sandwich on the side and a warm cup of strawberry tea, I’m ready to roll!

So this last week has been pretty damn good. What have I done? What have I not? I think I’ve been spending more time in Arcada than at home, which is pretty amazing, considering that I love sleeping in my bed. I got a weekend access for the building, because I want to do my school work there, yet I wouldn’t like to compromise that with spending time with friends there.

I know I hang out with a lot of people, I’m completely aware of that, but I would like to keep it that way, because it makes me feel busy and social. And the people are nice, too. So I wouldn’t like to be stuck in the computer rooms during the week, when I can have a long lunch with my friends. Hence, I took the weekend access. (cause let’s be honest, I can never do anything at home.)

The irony is that I don’t have time for my friends outside of Arcada, which makes me more than sad, because they are, after all, my best friends. I try to invite them to happenings as much as I can, but they either have something to do during the week, or they’re just not interested. And they hang out together during the weekends, which doesn’t work for me, because I have work really early in the morning and they’re all the way in Espoo. Although, I did go partying with Kaisa last Wednesday and I did meet Johanna on the Monday after that. And I do talk to Joel on daily basis, so I guess that’s nice.

But time seems to be quite relative for me at the moment. Even though it’s been a whole week, it only feels like a few hours, everything is a big blur, because I’ve been keeping busy. Firstly, I attended a lecture on pitching your ideas by Mike Bradshaw. I’ve seen him lecture before, in our Communications and Public Speaking course, but this time it was different. It was a “lecture”, but it lasted all day and everyone got to pitch their ideas and get some valuable feedback on what they’re lacking. I found it to be quite helpful and nice! It continued until quite late, even though it was supposed to end at 15.00. But oh, well, ideas need time. :)

Then the next day I attended 2 lectures on “henkilöbrändäys” (branding yourself) by Jarkko Sjöman and Achieving your goals and dreams by Patrick (Pata) Degerman.

Jarkko Sjöman is this cool fella:

His presentation “The Resume of a Superman” is one of the most viewed on this cool site called “SlideShare” and he works as a branding coach. All of his accomplishments give him a lot of credibility, he knows his stuff. Now, I would like to take a second to mention that his lecture was entirely in Finnish and I’m so proud of myself for actually going, because I understood everything (yes, even the jokes) and I was able to follow his train of thought for the entire 45 minutes in which he was speaking and I even raised my hand 1 or 2 times. I should speak more… With that being said, his lecture was interesting and somewhat educational, even though I already knew most of the things he talked about.

And then THIS GUY:

(couldn’t find a bigger picture). Pata Degerman. He comes into the big auditorium like he owns the place, plays Tina Turner on his laptop for everyone to hear as he prepares his presentation and when he starts talking…his voice fills up the whole auditorium effortlessly. If you need a definition of what a manly voice sounds like, I suggest you give him a call just to hear it, I promise you, it’s epic. And he tells his story of how he made it to Antarctica, to a place where no one has ever been before. It was delightfully funny and crazy at the same time. I for one, think that this man is completely BONKERS to put his life in danger like that AND fight for years on end to do it. But you know what, as crazy as he seems to me, I say “here’s to the crazy ones, the ones who don’t take no for an answer and the ones, who fight their way to success.” His story was truly inspirational and I never thought I would say this for a guy, who was interested in something completely foreign to me. If any of you ever meet Mr.Degerman and he has time, please ask him to tell you his story, I promise you, you’re going to love it!

Sooo anyway, I was super inspired and had lots of things crossing my mind, so I went immediately to the computer rooms and started working on my business idea. I had already started doing it last week, because I thought I’d give the Rotary startup challenge a go. Just for fun. For the feedback, for the advice, for the experience. I can only gain from this, no matter how good/bad my idea is. So after I had done yet another segment of my presentation and pitch preparation, I immediately went to talk with this AMAZING woman:

Mervi Hernberg, ladies and gentlemen. The former head of Fazer’s marketing department and an amazing human being altogether. She was like a huge ray of sunshine, full of ideas which might help me and you could see that she was genuinely excited about what I was doing. I think she’s my new favorite teacher. She made me feel very, very comfortable and gave me so much valuable advice and I can’t explain it, but she just seems very genuine and warm and…GREAT. So yeah, I could praise her forever. But she did help me out a lot and she gave me some other teacher names, which I can contact and ask for further advice. She also booked the Oasis for me, to practice on my pitching with 2 other guys from Germany and South Africa. In case you don’t know, the Oasis is possibly the best room in arcada. It’s a green room, entirely nature themed (really cool design), full of fatboys, a comfortable couch with lots of pillows, a smart board and a computer. It’s quite light there, too. The purpose of it is to put you in the mood to innovate, think, create and better yourself. Mainly used for entrepreneural purposes. So yeah, we went there with the guys and had a blast! Lots of good feedback on all of our pitches…we’ll probably meet again next week to pitch again and see if we’ve straightened out our problems.

It makes me kind of nervous to think that I will have to pitch in front of a jury in just over 2 weeks…I want to sound serious, even though I’m passionate about what I want to do, I don’t want it to sound childish or stupid. And the biggest intimidation comes from the previous Rotary contestants and most probably Markus Mittler, who comes across as an extremely smart person, who knows what he’s talking about and who has great ideas (or I don’t know, I haven’t really heard him pitch, but I’ve talked to him once and that was like…enough. :D) But yeah, intimidating fella.

But anyway, I’m doing it for the feedback, so I shouldn’t really care! We are all just humans at the end of the day. :)

Oh and by the way, also one thing I did this week is to contact the awesome Mathias, who is the head of Arcada’s Entrepreneurship Society (only awesome people involved, seriously) and ask him if I could also get on board, because I’m interested in what they’re doing and I think I could help somehow. He was more than happy to oblige, so I guess I’m now also a part of the entrepreneurship society and let me tell ya, there are some truly great things coming up! :P

But yeah! That’s it for this week, I guess!

//Stef – have a great weekend!

Being an entrepreneur. What?

Hey, blog!

Even though I’ve been to many interesting parties lately, this is not what I want to talk to you about today.

Remember, when I told you that I’ve been meeting new people at Arcada? The staying there later than usual and having a great time? Yes, well… I kind of started something on my own here.

First off, I want to say that my way of thinking has not been changed at all, if anything, it has just been amplified. Friends and family can confirm that I’ve always wanted to be creative and do things, which people don’t necessarily put a “normal job” label on. I remember my mom asking me what I wanted to do when I grow up (when I was about 5 years old) and I replied “A SINGER!” with such enthusiasm and passion. I actually held on to that dream for quite a while. I was maybe 13 years old, when I actually realized that my vocal gifts aren’t all that and I probably won’t get far with that. Since then I’ve been passionate about Film making and short films in particular. I just really, really want to learn about that.

28387e8e2e3f084d5aac6b1784961129931dc60cAnyway, what I was thinking was that I really, really, really don’t want to work for anybody (long-term). I want to work WITH someone towards goals that WE find good. Basically I don’t want to do only one thing during my lifetime and the thought of doing something, which makes me unhappy terrifies me.

I’m really interested in seeing how I can make things work for me, I have spoken to a few professionals (which were provided by Arcada, so this school has some amazing opportunities) and lately I’ve been reading articles and in all honesty, entrepreneurship seems to be just the thing I want to do (well, film making, but you gotta be an entrepreneur for that.) I never realized this until a few weeks back, when I was hit by a sudden clarity – I’m young and I have nothing to lose, so I might as well go after what I want.

I mean, I have no responsibilities, no family to take care of, no loans to pay off, it’s just me and my free time. And my idea. And that one has been bugging me for a while and I just HAVE to make it. I’d like to quote an article from , where they advice you to start your own company if you have an incurable obsession:

Start a company after you sit on your idea for a while—and you can’t get it out of your head. You’re obsessed. You’re incurable. No matter how much you try not to think about the business, it keeps coming back. You start working on the idea during all your free time. You can’t stop talking to friends and family about it. And you feel like you will never forgive yourself if you don’t take a chance.

This is what happens to me and I know that it would be so fun to realize this idea. And if entrepreneurship is the way to do it – I’m jumping on the bandwagon.

b79ca3bf41d73226ba260877144a0132365711dfNot only do I have inspiration and motivation, but I also have vision. It would be such a waste to not go for it. Jordan Belfort has said that vision is the thing that keeps you going. It’s true that he was a drug-addict popping enough pills to take out a grown horse and he did serve time in federal prison for financial fraud, but he does have a point.

My vision is to make something really great. I can see myself already there and I know how good it feels. I can change something, I really can. I will travel the hell out of the world, building a strong community, which is awesome and supports itself. I can change the way people think, I can promote creativeness, innovation, unique ideas and best of all – I can shatter the myth that you need to hate your job in order to be successful in it. I also don’t care so much for the money aspect, if it lets me live comfortably with a humble lifestyle. I want to meet more people like me, who are not afraid to say what they want and fight for it. More Makers, more Do-ers, more people, who are realizing that being happy depends on them.

This is just my dream job. And that’s what being an entrepreneur is like? Definitely count me in. I don’t mind working 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, because I know that this will just make me so happy that it’s totally worth it. I NEED to make it and I need to make it NOW. I’ve been going to my university during the weekends, so that I could work on my business plan (which in all honesty is a bit complicated and as a business student I feel like I have no idea what I’m doing), we got some pretty neat rooms there with big boards, which let your thinking side come to life and get stuff done effectively. I’ve also been going to some really interesting lectures, which are helping me to express what I want better (like the pitching session we’re going to have tomorrow). I’ve spoken with a few teachers, asking for help on some unclear things and I think I’m starting to get a move on everything.

I like it.

I’m probably going to enroll for the “Rotary startup challenge” just for fun, get some experience from there, gather some good critique, meet new people and see how they present their ideas. I actually can’t wait, even though I have a lot of things to get done before that. This year is going to kick ass. :)

Sooo, get yourselves ready, cause soon I’m bringing out the cameras and you’re about to witness some really cool stuff! I’m the perfect combo of business and pleasure. :D Awyeah.

The only thing that could go better is if I would have someone to partner with, buuuuuuut it’s kind of difficult for me to make those decisions. I suppose I will find someone. All in good time.

Now I’m going to leave you, kids, to eat your ice cream and go to bed.

//Stef – Future Entrepreneur? Hope so.