So it’s that time of the year again. The time, where I review the whole year and hope to get some sort of conclusions from the experience I’ve gotten (if any). And you get to see a few photos, which I have not published anywhere else. Yay.
The first half of the year was pretty blunt, not much happening. We studied our assess off at school, because matriculation exams were coming up and we all wanted good grades (or at least I did!). I will still remember the “lafka” hang-outs as the best part in school, because I got to talk to people, who weren’t in my class or even in my year. And Lily was there and I love her. She was the women who sold us snacks and drinks, I grew very close to her this past year. Sometimes I would just skip classes that I thought weren’t important and I would stay and talk to her about whatever, it was really great!
And of course, there were Coci, Ivana, Rumen and the others who really brightened up my otherwise boring few months. We tried to bring fun into the dull classroom, I’m really sorry that I don’t have many pictures, but I can find one or two. Before you know it, it was already May – the most hectic month of the year. Exams, driving theory, parties, prom, traveling to Finland, you name it. It was time for me to leave Bulgaria and I couldn’t be happier. I only remember this one dinner I had with my mom and her 3 best friends, when everybody started to cry for me and I was in a little bit of a shock, I didn’t expect so much bitter affection at all. Of course after this, I was feeling incredibly guilty for leaving, but there wasn’t really much I could do about it. And I’m going to see those people again eventually.
Anyway, after I arrived in Finland, I couldn’t have been prepared for what was in store for me. Here are 2 pics of me at Aleksanteri’s graduation party (my host brother). From then on, things started going downhill for me. I had one of the worst summers I’ve had so far and it was still somehow one of the best. I was incredibly happy to see my friends again. Jamppa, Joel, Henkka, Johanna, Rasse, Jazz, Nelli, Nora and Kaisa and others from Etis, who I’ve missed, they were the ones who made the transition easier for me.
But I also had family problems, which were consuming a lot of my time, energy and thoughts. I also got a job, which I absolutely hated in my guts so much that sometimes I would cry before I fell asleep on a workday.
Nevertheless, I put on a really happy face for everyone and I tried to go out with my friends as much as possible, because they made me feel better. Here are a few pics from the lovely summer. Then University started and I think that’s the best thing that has happened this year. I loved (still do) everything so much! From the very first day I knew that I was in the right place. I met great people there and the parties started to rain down on us, we had so many introduction days, got properly introduced to the university life and met some really nice teachers. I really have nothing, but good things to say about Arcada.
The best thing about it is that it only keeps getting better! 🙂 I keep meeting more and more really cool people and that makes me so happy. I started to orientate myself also towards media, which is what interests me in the first place, so I took a few Film&TV courses and I couldn’t be happier about this decision. I’m in a really good place right now and I actually mean it. I do have some small problems, but it’s nothing serious and at the moment I’m just living the life. Here are more pics: And you know, this is just half of it! University life is the best. In conclusion I would like to say that 2013 has been a real bitch, but I made it work somehow. Now I am a completely independent 18 year old bulgarian girl, who is living in Finland. I make my own money, I live on my own and I still manage. I never thought that this would be me. Haven’t heard from mommy and daddy in a while, nor do I need to do it. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying I’m the best ever, but to suddenly move to a foreign country and start being independent from day 1, especially since you have no idea how life works at the age of 18, I think is something I should be proud of. So yeah, 2013 was a real teacher and that’s why I don’t necessarily like it, but I’m grateful for it.
Now I have a bunch of stories to tell my kids, when I grow old. ADVENTURE MOM!!!
And you know what, all of the bullshit that I’ve faced this year (most of it you don’t even know about) didn’t make me want to settle down. In fact, it enhanced my otherwise happy and curious personality. If I wished I would know the world better by traveling before, now I’m planning where to go next. If I thought I was social by talking to 10 people a day, now I try to be active and speak to as many people as possible and 10 is definitely not cutting it. I’ve outdone my old self. I want to go bungee jumping, skydiving, swim with sharks, visit every single interesting place in the world, be free, smile more, party my ass off, give love to people without expecting anything in return, be inspired, work with cameras, try new things and be brave. That sounds like me now. Thanks, 2013, for reminding me what’s really important to me. 🙂
//Stef – I am happy.